Here's my blog. This is for you, Estelle Dishelman.

So I've created a blog in order to spend even more time putzing around on the internet! Hopefully, Eli will also be a little more informed about my life because I miss you!
But really, this is for you, Di$h, so you can stay updated on my life while I'm busy and uncommunicative and you're "jobbinit."

So here's what's up with my life...a bunch of recent random thoughts:

I've been cooking waaay too much lately. You see, if and when I have free time and I'm already too hungover to be social, I tend to go grocery shopping. This is a pretty new practice. I go buy things like fresh bread, which I really love, but I can never finish a whole loaf because I live alone now (for the first time EVER, I remind you), first press unfiltered imported olive oil, weird fake meats, weird real meats, bavarian pretzels, strange fruit juices that are either antioxidant or contain algae, and massive amounts of produce. So I have a fridge full of food that will go bad and I will still get much fatter.

I went out to brunch with my family today. My dad's been in town and he's going back to China tomorrow.
Here's to you Eli, he keeps pressuring me to come to China, which I will do when I have a month off. Maybe next winter? Eli, you still going to be there? Anyway, I'm starting to feel bad about my [lack of] relationship with him. I mean, I think I have ample reason to hate him, but he's been trying to be affectionate lately, which is new. So, naturally, he still doesn't know what I (obsessively) study or anything else about my life (what else is there?!??!?!). He still hasn't told me he's remarried. But he gave me a book of signed blank checks for emergencies! (Cha-ching!) So at least he's keeping up the only thing he was ever good at.

I am currently very disappointed that my summer plans have been disrupted by the selling-out of Rock the Bells tickets. They're going for $200 a piece on Ebay now. I think I will have to wait a few weeks and see if they get any cheaper on Ebay. But then again, I may just pay the $200. It seems worth it for that day. Either way, I still promise to come to NY over the summer. Maybe over my birthday whether I can get the fest ticket or not.
This festival situation makes me reflect on what's changed about me since I came back to the U.S. and started school. What happened to my "just do it" attitude? I think and worry about everything now! it's like I've devolved as a person. I've re-adopted that "but I have too much work to do and I don't want to worry about it right now" attitude. If I think I want to go somewhere, I need to just commit and buy the tickets. If I wait, they'll be gone! My friend Andrea told me about the festival before the ticket pre-sale and since I waited 4 days, I'm now screwed out of at least $120. Anyone want to go to Brazil with me? let's buy tickets right now!!!!! for serious!!! Come to Berlin with me? Rich, I really am thinking about it. (And BTW, Rich, I got your phone message...sicko.)
God, I've also become an overconsuming bourgeois bitch again. I don't know what happened! Just 2 years ago, I threw out/donated almost everything I owned and moved all over the place with 2 suitcases. Now I'm buying things all the time strictly for entertainment. The more I buy, the more I reorganize, the more I find things I thought were lost, the more I realize I never needed to buy the new stuff in the first place. *sigh*

I still haven't looked at summer language courses either, but yo, I think I will have to say "screw French, let's learn Serbo-Croatian." Or maybe Mandarin...stop being a Chinese illiterate too...Make them glad they didn't send me down the river!!!

What else? Oh, I spent some time this weekend partying with and harrassing prospies. I freaked them out with my ideological conversion theory...It was truly glorious. And finally, for 2 nights in a row, I had groups of friends over just chilling out till...5am?. It felt like the glory of undergrad reemerging. Yeah, thanks for the half-eaten pretzels strewn all over my apartment, Toussaint. =)
I will totally have to move over the summer to a bigger place. My hole is really inadequate for hosting. My department gets prospies next weekend and Suzy's coming (yay!!!!).

More loose thoughts? I'm re-reading Marx yet again. But I do seem to get something different out of it every time. I really think that all the reading I did in college doesn't count anymore and it needs to be done again, which is sad because I read some really cool stuff.

I think I need to get back to work, but much love to everyone keeping up with me through this new medium!